Friday, March 19, 2010
I want to take care of people. I want them to be ok and happy and I want to help them achieve that good state of being. I'm in the mode where I feel like there's so much more wrong with me than right with me and it's weird.
One step forward and two steps back.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
So over break my best friend and I had a very passionate discussion (I won't call it a dispute, cause I don't think it was) and he thinks we made some progress on me but I don't really think so. I may be wrong. He put it in really good words one time..."I think you just need to learn how to be alone, without being lonely".
I honestly think that's the biggest issue. Well and that I'm overly attached to one person.
I'm really really REALLY having an internal struggle with this issue because I don't know what to do with it. How to address it. And it affects other people and I don't particularly like that that happens.
Wrestling with myself legitimately makes me tired. And the fact that this is truly affecting my life really bothers me.
See, like now, I'm upset.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010